Commitment 2: change habits

October 30, 2008

Last night, after the kids went to AWANA, I cleaned the house. I couldn’t stop cleaning. I even bent over to pick stuff up. I haven’t had that desire to clean in a long time. It’s always this huge battle with my body to get up and do that. I didn’t feel more energetic, but I had enough energy to get up and clean the house. I was a machine. Once I got to a point where I knew I wouldn’t have any more fun at all if I didn’t stop, I took a bath. Then I ate the yummiest taco salad. No sour cream, no cheese. It was still good! I plan to go to the grocery store and buy more ground turkey breast and make some more taco meat. Then I played my guitar for a bit and watches a few episodes of M*A*S*H*. THEN I read a couple chapters of my book. It was nice to have some time to myself.

Commitment 2: I will make changes in my eating habits and change my old beliefs about dieting.

I am implementing this with all the adjustments I am making with eating every 2-3 hours regardless of the circumstances. Yesterday I was hungry. I should’ve eaten at 5:30 and I was so rushed getting the kids out the door in their costumes that I just didn’t do it. I was finally going to eat my taco salad at 6:15 but I seen that Allison forgot her project on the counter. So instead of eating my taco salad, I put all the makings in the frig and made a shake. Then I drove the project to her. I ate my taco salad at 8 instead. Eating a little bit throughout the day is a concept I’ve never attempted before. I heard it was good for weight loss, I just always struggled to get in one meal a day and snack when necessary the rest of the time. I am also noticing Starbucks and missing them. A friend posted on facebook yesterday that the peppermint mocha’s are back. Gulp. Those are my favorites. My old beliefs about dieting are that I can’t do it. This goes back to forgiving myself for failing before. Dieting is only fun for me while the weight is falling off. When the weight stops falling off, I easily get discouraged and soon quit. I pray the weight doesn’t stop coming off until I am ready for it to stop coming off. I would love to experience a maintenance stage or a transition stage. That would be a first for me.

Obstacles and goals for today: nothing that seems major today. Today is a work day for me, with nowhere to go. I could get tripped up by dropping my guard. I won’t do that. I will also work double hard at eating every 2.5 hours.