October 23, 2008
Yesterday my headache never went away. I am reading the book “The Secret Is Out” and on p. 62 it talks about the first few days on the program. I guess it takes 2-3 days for your body to adapt to the plan. Hungry, tired, irritable, headaches and lightheadedness are normal. These symptoms are supposed to go away as my body enters into the fat burning state and my body adjusts to diet. It advises to avoid tempting smells of food. Roy made me go to McDonalds and get the family dinner last night. Grrr. It was torture. I did it, but I’m still resentful. I did go see my friend in the hospital. That distracted me for a bit, but it didn’t help the headache at all. I went and bought a book yesterday to preoccupy my mind, but my head hurt and I don’t feel like I have enough energy to read. So, it sounds like I am right on track.
In my book, page 32 it says to write down ten reasons why I want to lose weight. I’ve been thinking about that all night. It’s a hard one. Then it gets nitpicky and says to list positives. ??? I’ll do my best here.
1. I want my face to be without fat dimples and double chins. (I hate my fat face)
2. I want to be able to ride amusement park rides without fear of getting kicked off (like I did this summer at Six Flags) because I can’t buckle the safety belt.
3. I want to enjoy sex with my husband.
4. I want to be able to shop for clothes anywhere.
5. I want to give myself a pedicure.
6. I want to enjoy hiking and rock climbing again.
7. I want to skydive. I’m too heavy for a tandem dive right now.
8. If I ever get a chance to play guitar on stage again, I want to look good.
9. I don’t want people to pity me, talking behind my back about how they just wish I’d lose weight.
10. I need to be healthy. I don’t have health insurance so health problems that pop up are expensive. I don’t want diabetes like my dad. I don’t want heartburn anymore.
So, that wasn’t so hard. There are plenty of reasons to lose weight. Tomorrow I’ll try to think of a reasonable goal. That’s hard because the weight target just is too far away. I don’t want to think about trying to lose 150 pounds. I don’t want to think about losing 100 pounds. Not yet anyway. That just seems so hard. Although it seems people achieve that goal faster on this diet than any other I’ve seen so I may change my mind about that. In 2002 when I lost 50 pounds, I weighed 198 and I bungee jumped. I felt really good and felt capable of doing most everything above. But I plateaued there and was just unable to lose anymore. I was going it alone too so I had no idea how to transition into a normal diet. Gained it all back plus some.
MEAL 1 9 AM Cappuccino & one cup coffee
MEAL 2 12 PM Oatmeal Raisin bar I cut it up into 8 pieces and chewed slowly. Savored every bite.
MEAL 3 2 PM Chicken noodle soup. It was weird, but I ate it.
MEAL 4 5 PM blueberry antioxidant shakes with splenda. I liked this much better with splenda. I’ll try the cherry pomegranate shake with splenda tomorrow.
MEAL 5 9 PM
LEAN AND GREEN salad, 2T dressing, 2 veggie burgers, .5 t ketchup
WATER OR CALORIE FREE BEVERAGE
CAFFIENE CAFFIENE CAFFIENE BAR ANTI OX SHAKE
I feel: Weak.
October 24, 2008
So today I enter the ‘fat burning’ stage. My health coach told me that my hunger pains were probably acid rumbling around in my stomach and to take Prilosec or Zantac for it. Imagine that, all this time all I needed was a little more Zantac. LOL That was a new one for me. Energy wise, I’d feel fine if I got a good night sleep last night. I was up every two hours going to the bathroom and then when I woke up at 6:30, I just couldn’t go back to sleep. So now I could use a nap, but I don’t think it’s because of my caloric intake. Allison has a very sore throat this morning so we’ve done an abbreviated version of school.
Goals: First goal to lose at least 40 lbs before Christmas, at least 50lbs before the woman’s retreat. I am hopeful that I can do that plus more, but I will be proud of myself if I can do that much, especially with the holidays standing between us.
Yesterday my headache never went away. I am reading the book “The Secret Is Out” and on p. 62 it talks about the first few days on the program. I guess it takes 2-3 days for your body to adapt to the plan. Hungry, tired, irritable, headaches and lightheadedness are normal. These symptoms are supposed to go away as my body enters into the fat burning state and my body adjusts to diet. It advises to avoid tempting smells of food. Roy made me go to McDonalds and get the family dinner last night. Grrr. It was torture. I did it, but I’m still resentful. I did go see my friend in the hospital. That distracted me for a bit, but it didn’t help the headache at all. I went and bought a book yesterday to preoccupy my mind, but my head hurt and I don’t feel like I have enough energy to read. So, it sounds like I am right on track.
In my book, page 32 it says to write down ten reasons why I want to lose weight. I’ve been thinking about that all night. It’s a hard one. Then it gets nitpicky and says to list positives. ??? I’ll do my best here.
1. I want my face to be without fat dimples and double chins. (I hate my fat face)
2. I want to be able to ride amusement park rides without fear of getting kicked off (like I did this summer at Six Flags) because I can’t buckle the safety belt.
3. I want to enjoy sex with my husband.
4. I want to be able to shop for clothes anywhere.
5. I want to give myself a pedicure.
6. I want to enjoy hiking and rock climbing again.
7. I want to skydive. I’m too heavy for a tandem dive right now.
8. If I ever get a chance to play guitar on stage again, I want to look good.
9. I don’t want people to pity me, talking behind my back about how they just wish I’d lose weight.
10. I need to be healthy. I don’t have health insurance so health problems that pop up are expensive. I don’t want diabetes like my dad. I don’t want heartburn anymore.
So, that wasn’t so hard. There are plenty of reasons to lose weight. Tomorrow I’ll try to think of a reasonable goal. That’s hard because the weight target just is too far away. I don’t want to think about trying to lose 150 pounds. I don’t want to think about losing 100 pounds. Not yet anyway. That just seems so hard. Although it seems people achieve that goal faster on this diet than any other I’ve seen so I may change my mind about that. In 2002 when I lost 50 pounds, I weighed 198 and I bungee jumped. I felt really good and felt capable of doing most everything above. But I plateaued there and was just unable to lose anymore. I was going it alone too so I had no idea how to transition into a normal diet. Gained it all back plus some.
MEAL 1 9 AM Cappuccino & one cup coffee
MEAL 2 12 PM Oatmeal Raisin bar I cut it up into 8 pieces and chewed slowly. Savored every bite.
MEAL 3 2 PM Chicken noodle soup. It was weird, but I ate it.
MEAL 4 5 PM blueberry antioxidant shakes with splenda. I liked this much better with splenda. I’ll try the cherry pomegranate shake with splenda tomorrow.
MEAL 5 9 PM
LEAN AND GREEN salad, 2T dressing, 2 veggie burgers, .5 t ketchup
WATER OR CALORIE FREE BEVERAGE
CAFFIENE CAFFIENE CAFFIENE BAR ANTI OX SHAKE
I feel: Weak.
October 24, 2008
So today I enter the ‘fat burning’ stage. My health coach told me that my hunger pains were probably acid rumbling around in my stomach and to take Prilosec or Zantac for it. Imagine that, all this time all I needed was a little more Zantac. LOL That was a new one for me. Energy wise, I’d feel fine if I got a good night sleep last night. I was up every two hours going to the bathroom and then when I woke up at 6:30, I just couldn’t go back to sleep. So now I could use a nap, but I don’t think it’s because of my caloric intake. Allison has a very sore throat this morning so we’ve done an abbreviated version of school.
Goals: First goal to lose at least 40 lbs before Christmas, at least 50lbs before the woman’s retreat. I am hopeful that I can do that plus more, but I will be proud of myself if I can do that much, especially with the holidays standing between us.
Here are a couple of before pictures I took of my ugly face. See all the extra fat deposits on my cheeks and chin? My neck has fat rolls all the time. Not cool.
It’s Friday, so short term goal is to make it through the weekend strong.
Meal 1: 8:30 am Cappuccino with 2 cups coffee and one packet splenda
Meal 2: 11:30 (actually 1 L) swiss mocha shake
Meal 3: 2:00 peanut butter bar
Meal 4: 5:00 bananas shake
Lean and Green Meal 2 veggie burgers, soy sauce, salad, dressing
Meal 6: 8 or 9 pm
Waters/Crystal Lights
Bar anti ox shake caffeine caffeine caffeine
Today I feel: Tired
October 25, 2008
I am Feeling alright this morning. I slept the whole night through without getting up to go potty. I do have a headache but it’s small. We are going to be off the beach here soon. I am worried about how I’m going to have fun without food.
9:30 Cappuccino
I packed ten meals to take to the beach with us. Hopefully I can do this without a journal J
October 26, 2008
I made it to the beach and back without cheating. I also walked from Ecola State Park, almost to Haystack Rock and back. I walked in the sand for over an hour. It had to be at least a mile to that Rock. In the sand too! I went through the drive through at McDonalds again, watched my family eat pizza at a restaurant, walked by elephant ears, watched my niece and her friends eat chocolate covered Twinkies, smelled candy, sat by a birthday cake and watched my family eat it and I gave away my garlic bread , smelled fried food ALL WEEKEND and I made it. It was hard. What I didn’t do was drink all my water, eat every two hours and I had a hard time eating my grilled chicken salad because it came with almonds and parmesan and carrots. I picked out as much as I could and had my dressing on the side. I just hope it was good enough. It was hard though. I don’t know if I could do it again. Honestly I just want an elephant ear and something else fried like French fries. Gheez. Dear God, please help me do this. So tomorrow will be day 7. I’ll keep better track of my meals and water and then weigh myself Tuesday. I really hope this pays off.
My meal/The family’s Meal. My crowning achievement thus far.
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